Betrayed by hope!!

I was waiting for you to come back
Dint know how to say, I was taken aback
Looking back at those lovely moments we endured
Can’t wake up from dreams, is there any cure?

You remind me of the breeze that makes one refreshed
I get swayed by it, like dry leaves instead
You are the incense which makes me feel high
But you wont let me near, am I unfit for thy??

I want to pause forever, never wanna face this fact
how could I forgive you for such a cunning tact
it pricks like needles, or like fierce arrows
pierces through my heart for uncountable blows

Only your thoughts now, show a ray of hope,
deep down in my soul I know it is all fake dope
Clinging onto this slight line, I am making my life drag
I am waiting for you, knowing that you won’t come back!!

I owe this

I just want to say this
I owe this to you
although it is hard to explain
but my life wont be through

You must mean something to me
coz I don’t belong here at all
it fills my heart more everyday
that someday you will take a call

I stopped thinking long ago
but it seems farther than that
may be expressing this is just
a small part of that huge debt

Mind to No-Mind

“Mind”. The word itself is enough to leave thousands of us blank for the fact that either we do not know anything about it or we have heard every possible notorious thing about mind’s powers.

Mind is the one of the most powerful elements of human beings. Human beings are blessed with a mind. Animals, birds and plants are happy without it. Mind does not have a shape or a size. It does not have a particular location in our body. It is ethereal, celestial. The journey from Mind to No – Mind state is the ultimate journey, the biggest ecstasy ever known to humans.

Mind keeps wandering in past and future like a pendulum. It cannot stay in the present. Your being and your body are always in the present. Your body shares one great thing in common with your being which is that they both reside in the present time. Mind cannot reside in the present. It is either roaming in the past (memories)or in the future (imaginations). Mind’s entire power is to move to and fro between these time extremes.

Start practising silence. By Silence I mean the silence of body and the mind. Sit silently for a few minutes everyday. Neither your body nor the mind should move. Do not let your mind wander with random thoughts like dry leaves in the air. Do not let your body move. It would be difficult in the beginning, but as your continue practicing, you will learn to be silent everytime. The rhydhm will be unstoppable. It will go and on. If you achive that state, a transformation will occur which will purify you completely. After reaching this conscious state of being completely present and with no mind, you will transform all other beings who happen to come in your aura. A magnetic field will surround you all the time.

Achieving this is not difficult. Try and practise yourself. Teach your mind to be silent. Slowly it will start listening to you. However a guide (guru) is greatly appreciated. I have found none myself so far, but an expert conscious master will be a boon for your path.

All the moments we live are dying every moment. Every moment the last moment dies forever and the new one starts. It dies even before you have lived enough of it. Utilize every moment. Time once gone is gone forever. Take out few moments everyday for yourself, for your being. Feel your existence. Get it tune with it, slowly you will realize you are gaining bliss. This will start trasforming you. You can call it mesmerisation, charisma, transformation, ecstasy, bliss, enlightenment, nirvana or any other name you like to give it.

Future is unseen, unpredictable, unrealizable, unstoppable, uncontrollable. There is no meaning in wandering meaning less thoughts for the future which is going to come in its own way. Accept life as it comes. Learn to enjoy and live every moment. Live your life in a such a complete manner so that there are no regrets left even if you died this very moment.

Do not post things for tomorrow. Tomorrow never comes and with your mind in place, it really never comes. Trust me, there is always a new set of problems posed before when you are in tomorrow. Learn to deal with today and this moment. Remember, its here and now or its nowhere and never.

A silent breakup

Does my name ring a bell in your heart?
Or is it that you have forgot me so fast
I guess my life is so ripping apart
With no sign of you, a friend, sweetheart
 
Those old golden days, when we used to chitchat
With endless talks and with your friendly pat
The bench where we sat, now I see another pair
Where we laughed & cried; and those times when u cared
 
I loved it buddy to sit with you
Now I feel so empty with No sign of you
There was a shoulder I could always pour my tears on
Now, there is really no such place where I can rely on
 
The Heart is always swaying different sides
When u want it, you always have to fight with a great tide
Memories get washed away when u don’t love anymore
But what about me, who still feels so close
 
I loved it when we used to have coffee or tea
Even the times when we had ice cream
After losing the one; who is bound so soul tight
I tread to think that I have lost my appetite
 
Don’t you remember even one moment my dear honey
Life’s greatest gifts are free and can’t be bought with money
I thought u always want to be with me
To carry on with me the life’s entire journey
 
I still remember the time when u were with me
My pa in the hospital, with no other friend or ally
If I knew that you would distress and leave me so alone
I would have given up my life for you, falling down from a valley
 
Those difficult times in life when you needed a lift
Don’t u think I was the one who always explained u the gist
Trying hard to make you smile on silly jokes
I practically tried to act like a clown with different strokes
 
Hey do u remember the walk on the street?
It was so silent with only the moon and “US”
I said “US” bcoz; I always assumed it was “US”
Never really understood when u said “YOU” and “ME” which is a disgust
 
I think of those times when I bunked my class for you
Now I feel dreadful, because I hadn’t any clue
The polite way with which u said “Let’s Break up”
Feels like someone slapped me really hard and rough
 
I have no regrets to have done all these things
But where do I go now with no specific direction
I m trying to recollect these old good times
It always gives me pain to live life in desolation
 
Can’t there be any machine which rubs off the bad times
People would feel relieved with only Good times
I get angry with my heart which overlooks all your faults
It has become like an empty space & a deep burial vault
 
I can just thank you for the time u were with me
How could I have learned whats love, loneliness without “WE”?
Take care of my sweet buddy, inside YOU
I would always be there to help you; still loving u TRUE!!

Something for you

There is something special, I wanna give you
Walking down the aisle I wanna say “I Do”
Give all my soul, gift myself to you
I just wanna get so much lost in YOU…

Will you catch my hand, so that I am calm
Look in my eyes, to feel my love so warm
I don’t know what made you look more handsome
Was it the smile that you wore or the love in your tone?

I was lost in my thoughts, reliving the moments with you
I was stunned to feel so much close to you
I was also afraid to move ahead in life
And come and vow that we would be man and wife

But looking at you gave me courage
And I just started walking ahead to the stage
I was so excited about the days to come
Walking hand in hand with you to our own HOME

I was savouring each instance really very slowly
I wanted to live this NOW, doubting if this is happening all really
I made my promise to be with you, my life whole
In both happiness & sorrow and till the end of my soul

I wanted to kiss you dear, and make you only mine
At the same time, I know I can’t force u to stay all the while
I wanna give you freedom, and want to give you peace
I would be away, if that would make your stress cease

I know it sounds stupid, to say all these things,
But I m sure you would read between the lines to find something
If you make up ur your mind to keep this vow for lifetime
Do come back to me, this bride will wait for you till the end of her times!!

Everytime I fight

Everytime I fight with you
it pinches me all day and night long
whenever I shout at you
I fall from cliffs very strong
 
I sob for days further
trying to gain consciousness
In order to regain my energy
and peace and awareness
 
I start to condemn myself
For all the injustice I did
Praying to heal the wounds
Which were deep created
 
Sensations act as stimulant
When combined with passion
But are depressing and misleading
When you lose caution
 
Please help me achieve calmness
to spread energy and fragrance
Not for the moment of now
but in real essence
 
Please consider me a student
for life and to go beyond
If there exists a world apart
In the midst of unseen songs.

“I” has become “You”

Where ever I go
I find You
cannot really live now
my life without You

You, the only one
with me every where
doesn’t really matter whether
You are actually where?

What makes me think of You
I could not understand
You are the only support
besides which I stand

I visualize the world
with your sight
which has made my life
clear, shiny and bright

I listen to sound around
through your ears
which helped me overcome
all my fears

I breathe in You
I feel through You
I has lost its identity
“I” has become “You”