My Sunshine

You are mine
my sunshine..

come nearby
don’t be shy
I take you to sky
and let’s fly

coz u are mine
my sunshine..

u are my girl
u make flowers swirl
let’s play the songs
and dance together when moon shines

coz u are mine
my sunshine..

u make me feel better
my go getter
I wish u never go
but I don’t wanna stop
I know u would come back
though taken aback

coz u are mine
my sunshine..

Matter of choice

Coming from the critics of family and friends
He decided to jump in the artificial unending trench
This will give me peace at least he thought
No regrets to suffer for I would have fought

The game is easy but it is hard to end up winning
the chances are low to high, volatile and fluctuating
How they play so easy and win most of the times
May be we are biased to see ‘winners only’ at times

Concentrated and armed he jumped into the hell
Friends and competitors wishing false good wells
The game begins with a whistle from the almighty coach
a combat of two hours for the happiness he sought

Winning few points in a while, uneasy and sweating
like crazy seagulls on a red dawn for fish feasting
Losing all his strength not hope he sat down
May be we are not made for this, worried thoughts frowned

But my heart is still breathing and alive he thought
Game will not be over till I give up trying he knows
he got up, relished and hopeful for the final eve
Something just turned around by that blissful, living spree!

Thanking his body and mind for cooperating so best
He celebrated his victory, a soul searching quest
At last I know, winning is everything, he rejoiced
Actually WHAT you want, not HOW, is a matter of choice

Nayi ab talaash hai

Koi bahut door hai
Nahi ab koi paas hai
Milne ki jisse thodi aas hai
Wo bhi dikhti nahi kuch khaas hai
Isliye nayi ab talaash hai
Jagi ek adhuri pyaas hai
Jindagi yuhin ek phaans hai
Baaki sab bakwaas hai
Jab tak yeh saans hai…

Aur koi nahi paas hai..

Not yet started to feel

Princesses and angels seem to be knocking on my door
but somehow i find myself busy rolling on the floor
Life is so pretty and colorful if you see through right views
colorful and beautiful it is, of many shades and hues

Victory and achievements have called me aloud with many names
but somehow i find myself entangled in regular mysterious games
they always say your attitude not aptitude builds up your altitude
but even lives on lower levels do find success very cute

Society and mankind always had a place for me in their heart
but to trust their affection, I somehow find it very hard
they said; the beauty and the love belonged to the eyes
that’s how we, though not beings birds could enjoy these open skies

Dollars and coins have never ever deserted my pockets
but somehow kept measuring life in tiny leftover bits
they say money can buy all but not love and conscience
that’s why cognac and colored lights are dull but golden seems silence

Finally none but peace and wisdom have considered me a disciple
but there too I found myself struggling and miserable
Is this all life can provide, and which is so desirable in silent dreams
I would say you are just born and you have not yet started to feel!

Effects of Alcohol

Alcohol is a magical drink. It really does magic. For some, words come out of the heart; for some, words go back in the heart. Some feel introvert and feel like sitting silent for hours and talk to self whereas some become extrovert and continue talking with the world for hours together as if they are a politician. It is a magic, isn’t it? 

What happens actually when you drink? Or what happens when you drink, smoke or inject drugs? They all have similar effects on your body, although the intensities and shades are different. 

First thing these drugs do is they loosen your brain cells. They dilate your brain parts, which creates energy. Let’s understand by an example: 

Let’s say an electric motor throws water through a pipe. The amount of water thrown out every second is proportional to the area of the pipe, isn’t it? What if you replace the smaller pipe with a bigger one, the motor would start throwing more amount of water. 

Something similar happens in your brain, when you are high. The valves dilate and the cells loosen up. This process creates energy and you feel different. Some people use this energy to become introvert and use their mind to think about a lot of difficult matters in a short time, since the brain starts functioning very fast, so fast that the body is not able to catch up with it. Let’s understand with the same example: 

Let’s consider the same electric motor symbolizes the human body and its water flow symbolizes the working of the brain. As you increase the area of the pipe, the water pressure increases proportionately. However there is a threshold till which you can increase the area of the pipe. The moment you cross that limit, the motor would stop working, why? – Because, the motor capacity is not able to catch up with the increased pipe capacity. Similarly, when your brain starts working too fast, the body is not able to catch up with it; after all body has its own limits. Hence when you are high, you might experience your brain flying like a flying saucer but the body looses control, you can hardly stand properly and normally fell down. Synchronization is lost. 

It is sad that only few people understand this process appropriately and use that energy to create wonders. They could well solve impossible problems, create eternal paintings; write immortal poems and things of that level. This happens due to the extra energy; although there are limits. 

When body is not able to catch up completely with the brain, you cannot achieve much because body is the medium to act; to perform actions using senses. Till the time your body is in tune with the mind, you find people doing much when they are high, don’t you? They are found singing, dancing, abusing others, talking too much, over reacting, behaving erratically, freaking out and so on. This is due to the extra energy. So get high, but do use the energy properly. It is beneficial and could create miracles, if you learn to control it properly. Energy is like power; if you can handle it well, you are a hero but if you cannot handle it well, there is always a chance of harming yourself. So learn to work on it. 

Few tips: 

1. Know your limits. Consume only within limits.
2. Five Ds for alcohol (Duration, Density, Diet, Dilution and Sun-Dawn).
3. Use the extra energy produced for creative purposes, you will be surprised to see to the results. Try it yourself.
4. Do not consume outside unless really important, if former is the case, consume within your limits. Home is heaven.
5. Do not let others utilise your extra energy for their selfish motives.

Everytime I fight

Everytime I fight with you
it pinches me all day and night long
whenever I shout at you
I fall from cliffs very strong
 
I sob for days further
trying to gain consciousness
In order to regain my energy
and peace and awareness
 
I start to condemn myself
For all the injustice I did
Praying to heal the wounds
Which were deep created
 
Sensations act as stimulant
When combined with passion
But are depressing and misleading
When you lose caution
 
Please help me achieve calmness
to spread energy and fragrance
Not for the moment of now
but in real essence
 
Please consider me a student
for life and to go beyond
If there exists a world apart
In the midst of unseen songs.

One Evening

One dry windy evening,
I was all dark and alone
Frustrated and a bit depressed
And a total nervous
Didn’t know the reason, which put me in the prison
 
Possibly I was waiting for you
Or for your thought
Or for your spring smile
Atleast a word awhile
But as time really went
I got much more dense
 
Evening turned into night
And grey turned into black
Moon turned more shiny
The whispering of insects was chimy
Friends stated to have a shout
But I could not move about.
 
Suddenly I felt something light
Entering through my gloomy heart
It was a thought of yours
Which calmed me before I could start
I lost all my pains in a moment
I tried all means, but was silent
 
It brought a smile on my face
I started cheering up
Without a reason, without a presence
I started laughing up
I started feeling energetic
As to fight with the world
My heart started dancing, as to beat the birds
 
I could realize now
Your thought is so precious
More than your presence
As makes me always cautious
Your thoughts are my inspiration
Your words are my intellect
Your smile is my biggest Asset
You, the only Soulmate