She rings too loud

It has been like a week and I can’t stop thinking about her. Yes, she is the one I am talking about, she is so cool and serene. I stare at her whenever I get a chance. Only to see, to admire her beauty, her charm, so lovely to be a spectator. To watch her working is such a delight.

She is so busy all the time. Engrossed in her work, completely, as if she does not know what is happening in the world outside. As if you could mute all the noise that is going around and inside your mind and concentrate on the needle point. She is so calm. I could never see a line of agony or negativity on her face. So controlled, so blessed and happy.

I felt this feeling in me. It is just like when you admire the nature or when you feel so blessed standing on a mountain when a stroke of cold breeze hits your face. Like when you watch fishes swimming in the water, so icy, such a symphony. This is it. This is love.

She rings too loud in my mind. I cannot stop her. It is like an orchestra, not like Linkin Park, I would say. That is killing. It is like Bob Marley, the redemption song. But this time I want to die. Is this real? Why does this happen. A music starts in your mind suddenly and everything else seems dull. Every routine day seems so long. These are the days, when I feel the best of me. It gets better every day.

She is the symbol. The symbol of purity. A sensation, a thundering. A ray of light during a rainy and cloudy dark night!

Donate a life

This thought started in my mind when I saw an eye donation camp hoarding in my office lobby. Donating an organ, I thought, must be some serious stuff. It is like you giving away your heart to somebody. Heart exchanges do happen in everyday lives of college students, but this one is serious matter. This is literal. They are asking for it, in real sense.

There are organs which you can donate after you die and there are ones which you could donate and accept a challenging life ahead. The latter is difficult. People donate kidneys, bone marrow, cartilage, blood etc. and continue to live a life, more alive and heartfelt, though. Eye donation is generally preferred after you die. The reason could be that eyes are the only organ or sense which keeps you connected with this world and its beauty. Without eyes, you cannot see, but you can feel and touch and listen. You need to be more sensitive to praise the world using your hands or ears or heart for that matter. You can try though, its not impossible. If you have love in your heart, you do not need mediums to express it. It will flow, with or without a medium, just like water flows.

This thought of donating an organ always thrills me. I have considered filling an eye donation form many times in the past, but I have not yet completed the process. I would love to, but the only problem is that, I feel scared. I would be happy to donate a part of mine and to be able to see that person alive and feeling happy about life. That one is for me, I think. The only thing I wait for now is the feeling of compassion. I feel, I will do it someday.

Real Illusions

Ah, I rule the world!
I fly, across the skies
I am the one visible all around,
I am the one who cries

Feelings which are so new to me,
My mind is flying
I am making the most of it
Though I am not trying

It is meant to be the best of it?
or an illusion like everything else
Who can conclude on this one?
Only the one who has seen himself.

A list of To-Dos when you don’t know What to do!

Ups and downs are a part of life. Highs are not permanent, neither are lows. Life is always fluctuating between two extremes. This very nature of life is visible in all the smaller attributes of life. Extremes could be really good if used properly. Extreme moments are great possibilities. Considering these positive aspects and considering the amount of time I waste everyday wondering what to do and where to start, I have compiled a list. Feel free to customize this list for yourself and as per your moods. Remember, this is just a start. There could be many more creative things to do.

1. Go on a vacation to relax your mind.
2. Join a course. For e.g. music class, salsa, or sky diving.
3. Complete your studies, if you had missed any or had planned to do it later.
4. Take certifications related to your career profile.
5. Adopt a pet.
6. Start a sport.
7. Invent something.
8. Start a blog.
9. Create a business profile website.
10. Start painting. Painting is one of the best ways of expressing your thoughts freely on canvas using colours.
11. Make new friends. Famous social platforms could be a great start. Face book, Orkut, Hi5 etc.
12. Create a yearly planner. List down the tasks you would want to complete this year. Break them into months and weeks.
13. Maintain a Birthday list. List down the birthdays of friends and relatives, especially the ones you forget often.
14. Get involved in a relation. It could be serious or non-serious, or just friends.
15. Start reading. Read what you like, not necessarily bestsellers.
16. Watch movies. Keep up with all the blockbusters you have missed. I find this a great pastime as well as a great source of inspiration.
17. Arrange your wardrobe in an innovative manner. For e.g. based on seasons, or based on colours or based on the type of people you have to meet everyday.
18. Write a Composition / Poetry. Pick up a pen and a blank sheet of paper, and express yourself freely.
19. Attend a guest lecture.
20. Donate old stuff that you don’t use anymore.
21. Visit art galleries. They could be a good source of inspiration.
22. College reunion. Time to catch up with old friends. You never know what could become a possible opportunity.
23. Pay a visit to Old age homes or an Orphanage. They do not have many visitors.
24. Listen to music. Listen to your favourite music albums that are catching dust in drawers. Music is a therapy as well as meditation.
25. Speak up. Record your voice. Talk freely about any topic you like. Listen to it, find your mistakes and record again. There are many websites where you can submit your pod casts which people can listen – paid or free.
26. Fix your old electronic stuff.
27. Join a health club. They say, “Health is wealth.” nothing is changed so far.
28. Learn cooking. Cooking is a great art, and trust me, not everybody can do it.
29. Practice Yoga / Meditation. This relaxes your mind and body. Try different experiments. I enjoy doing this everyday. This could be a great way to understand yourself more and unlock hidden talents and skills.
30. Fix your computer.
31. Collect your favourite books from new or second hand stores.
32. Collect your favourite music from new or second hand stores.
33. Flash back experiment. Spare few hours and visualize your life backwards or forwards, as you are comfortable. Close your eyes and imagine your entire life is playing in front of you like a movie. Remember every detail as possible. Make a list of the mistakes, you feel, you did. Good moments will make you happy and bad ones will add in your experience list. Nothing to lose.
34. Learn photography. Firstly, World is very beautiful. It has to be recorded somewhere and secondly; there are many websites, where you can make some bucks by submitting original photographs.
35. Improve your aptitude skills. Time to solve some quizzes, puzzles and mysteries.
36. Draw some Cartoons / Caricatures. Remember, animation is concentration. The world would have been a very dull place, if there was no humour.
37. Write original jokes.
38. Mend broken hearts. Buy and present a gift to someone you care for.
39. Invite friends for dinner and spend a good time.
40. Help someone. What can I do for you? This question is worth asking. Try to ask this question with the right attitude to someone, and you will be surprised to find you could of great help.
41. Decorate your house / room. Try new ideas. Rethink about old posters and arrangements of furniture.
42. Gardening. Plants have a life. Plants are also sensitive to love, anger, hatred, music and other emotions. Try yourself.
43. Feed birds and animals. Feed oats and water to hungry birds and animals. This is a great satisfaction always.
44. Spend a good time with your parents. They have always been there for you. It’s your turn.
45. Set mini goals. Reward yourself if you complete on time.
46. Adopt a good habit. Like keeping silent for 4 hours or helping a needy one on some day. This could be fun as well as satisfaction.
47. Check out old photographs. This is a great nostalgic tool and a natural way to mend old relations or to relive beautiful moments of life.
48. Adopt a child. There are plenty who need a parent.
49. Go green. This means to try greener ways of doing things. This also means doing things, which would save environment.
50. Plan your investments. Consult a financial planner if you need.
51. Create something from used stuff.
52. Spend time with yourself. This could be a great way to identify your mistakes and find solutions to problems which seem impossible otherwise. This could also help you to grow spiritually.
53. Go and watch a live music concert.
54. Write your autobiography.
55. Write testimonials for your friends. Testimonials need not always be about things you like in the person. Honest feedback and appreciations always turn out a reward in the long run.
56. Change your profession for a day. Try and sell some shampoos or dog food for a day.
57. Take a dark bath. Take a bath with lights turned off. Check if you can manage.
58. Visit a library. Browse through your favourite books or encyclopaedias. Find out what is the capital of Mongolia, or most selling food in Brazil.
59. Try to use a different writing instrument. For e.g. use a charcoal or graphite pencil, permanent marker, colour pencil, sketch pen, glossy pen, etc. instead of a normal pen. It is fun.
60. Maintain a NOT-TO-DO list and DO-ONLY-WHEN-NEEDED lists.
61. Create a vision and mission of your life. Write a punch line for it.
62. Write a bucket list. A bucket list is of the tasks to do before you die.
63. Play videogames. PS2 or Portable PS are fantastic devices.
64. Watch online videos. Type a random keyword in search and check out the videos. You tube could be a great start.
65. Visit a museum. Museum is a good place to learn history.
66. Spare a few hours to check your bills. Mobile bills, electricity bills, Food bills, Pub bills, Credit card bills, Shopping bills etc. Check if you can cut down somewhere and save some bucks.
67. Vacuum clean your store room.
68. Take a walk. Fresh air is very relaxing and rejuvenating.
69. Experiment with coffee or tea. You can try adding one or more of these: Cream, Lemon, Cinnamon, Clove, Pepper, Aloe Vera, Bread, Orange juice, Fruits, Vegetables etc.
70. Go to a beach and enjoy sea waves.
71. Make a list of your girlfriends/boyfriends. Then categorize the list into serious/non serious ones. List could be further detailed adding the following things: date/time when met, time spent together, best moments together, worst moments together, things you learned from the person, things you liked/disliked about the person. This could be a great challenge and rejuvenation. This might help us to see our relations though an entirely different perspective. Only one thing to remember BE HONEST.
72. Change your hair style. Visit a stylist and demand that you want to look like Elvis Presley.
73. Eat fruits only for an entire day. Visit a grocery store and ask for all kinds of fruits they have. You will be surprised to see few which you dint even know.
74. Clean your mailbox. There are great chances of hitting across an important mail you had missed to see.
75. Update your contacts list. This could apply to your contacts in a mobile, PDA, outlook etc.
76. Call up an old girlfriend/boyfriend and request for a date for old times sake. Beware; this could turn out to be a life changing event
77. Change hands. Try to do things with your left hand against usual right hand or right hand for left handed people. Try to do this for an hour, and could be for an entire day, if you can manage without much problems.
78. Try to remember every face you know with a punch line. For e.g. Johnny, the liar or Suzanne, the pink skinny girl or anything else. Try to use punch lines which define the central quality of the person. This would help you remember more faces and deal with them appropriately.
79. Donate Blood. Thousands of road accidents happen everyday.
80. Go for a routine health check-up to your doctor. Pay the bill even if you are healthy.
81. Find and read about Native American tribes.
82. Count the number of traffic violators on the way while driving to the office.
83. Write a letter to Mr. President, asking when is the economy condition of the country supposed to improve and how can you be of help?
84. Remember and Write the dream, you had last night.
85. Read a story. Think and suggest a better title.
86. Go for a test drive of your favourite car.
87. Go for window shopping in the most expensive street of the city.
88. Steal something. If succeeded, return the same to the owner, with due respect.
89. Laugh aloud. Remember a funny moment and laugh freely. This will change your mood.
90. Go on a blind date. Internet is a revolution. Many websites can help you fix a blind date.
91. Sell your old pair of trousers at half.com
92. Take a shower.
93. Take a day off and visit a local place you had always wanted to.
94. Go for a swim.
95. Day dreaming. What happens if you become the president or what happens if Julia Roberts calls you for a date kinda stuff.
96. Cut your old pair of jeans to make knickers.
97. Carry an Idea Book with you, to note down important ideas and thoughts wherever you go.
98. Make a silent confession. Go to the place where you feel calm, close your eyes, and confess everything you want to say.
99. Google for your name.
100. Find out why Baby Sitting is a better profession than Dentistry.

Matter of choice

Coming from the critics of family and friends
He decided to jump in the artificial unending trench
This will give me peace at least he thought
No regrets to suffer for I would have fought

The game is easy but it is hard to end up winning
the chances are low to high, volatile and fluctuating
How they play so easy and win most of the times
May be we are biased to see ‘winners only’ at times

Concentrated and armed he jumped into the hell
Friends and competitors wishing false good wells
The game begins with a whistle from the almighty coach
a combat of two hours for the happiness he sought

Winning few points in a while, uneasy and sweating
like crazy seagulls on a red dawn for fish feasting
Losing all his strength not hope he sat down
May be we are not made for this, worried thoughts frowned

But my heart is still breathing and alive he thought
Game will not be over till I give up trying he knows
he got up, relished and hopeful for the final eve
Something just turned around by that blissful, living spree!

Thanking his body and mind for cooperating so best
He celebrated his victory, a soul searching quest
At last I know, winning is everything, he rejoiced
Actually WHAT you want, not HOW, is a matter of choice

Sports

Sport and game are not synonymous. They mean entirely different things. Sporting is much more deeper process compared to games. Games are activities done for fun purposes.

Sports are a boon. If you are a sportsman, you would know it. It takes a lot of hardwork and passion to learn sports, but sports have a much bigger picture to show you. It does not take anything to love sports, it comes from within. You can learn the skills but cannot buy the love for them. Love comes from your blood and your very basic nature and existence. Love is existence.

To be a perfect sportsmen, it demands a lot of time. Not everybody can do that. Sport transform you to higher levels of mind and soul. You do not belong here while playing. Journey towards the stage of perfection starts from the road of hardwork and passion but requires much more. You have to have that blood and those nerves. Hardwork and passion are blended with your genes and then a meditation stage is reached. You are meditating and all of your energies are concentrated. Just as concentration of sunrays brings fire, concentration of energies brings purification. At this stage, you get purified. This is the purification of the body, mind and the soul. You feel fresh and rejuvenated. After this cleansning process, there comes perfection.

At this time, your body is not controlled by you, neither do you require to concentrate forcibly. It just happens. You happen to play the best of your strokes and it just happens. They are called masterstrokes and masterstrokes create history. They continue to amuse the worlds for infinite durations. It is a divine creation.

It takes a lot to create masterstrokes, it is a long process and most of all, it requires those genes and that blood.

New Year Resolution

One more celebration and here comes yet another year, 2009; just like others have gone by. New year’s eve does not leave us astonished anymore. It does not give us a single chance to deny the plan. Year starts like a baby, who knows and ends up after approximately after 365 days according to the English calendar but we reside where we are. Although we celebrate, at least we pretend to do so, every new year ignoring that it is a routine process.

Cakes, crackers and cognac mark the start of new years eve and also sum it up on the actual day. Isn’t 365 days a gap big enough to celebrate. We should celebrate more often though, may be every day. Every day being alive is a reason enough to cheer. Especially when the days are hard lived. Endless moments make up a day and hence endless efforts dedicated each second, together sum up for a big day. Days go by and so do years. Durations could be small or big. Purposes make durations important.

And here is my new year resolution; Thinking, thinking and yet thinking. Thinking about life and thinking about no life. Thinking about every possible matter, dead or alive. Thinking is a great boon to humans alive and no body else can think including humans (dead on mind). Humans alive is an important phrase here.

Simple process yet so unique and important process of thinking viz. applying minds seems to have lost its purpose. We think on everything that is already been taken care of. We think of past and we think of the uncontrollable, the future.

My new year resolution is over and above all other resolutions and it is to think. I would think this year. I would plan not to think the thinkable and to think the unthinkable. Will this work? Well, let me think!