I owe this

I just want to say this
I owe this to you
although it is hard to explain
but my life wont be through

You must mean something to me
coz I don’t belong here at all
it fills my heart more everyday
that someday you will take a call

I stopped thinking long ago
but it seems farther than that
may be expressing this is just
a small part of that huge debt

A silent breakup

Does my name ring a bell in your heart?
Or is it that you have forgot me so fast
I guess my life is so ripping apart
With no sign of you, a friend, sweetheart
 
Those old golden days, when we used to chitchat
With endless talks and with your friendly pat
The bench where we sat, now I see another pair
Where we laughed & cried; and those times when u cared
 
I loved it buddy to sit with you
Now I feel so empty with No sign of you
There was a shoulder I could always pour my tears on
Now, there is really no such place where I can rely on
 
The Heart is always swaying different sides
When u want it, you always have to fight with a great tide
Memories get washed away when u don’t love anymore
But what about me, who still feels so close
 
I loved it when we used to have coffee or tea
Even the times when we had ice cream
After losing the one; who is bound so soul tight
I tread to think that I have lost my appetite
 
Don’t you remember even one moment my dear honey
Life’s greatest gifts are free and can’t be bought with money
I thought u always want to be with me
To carry on with me the life’s entire journey
 
I still remember the time when u were with me
My pa in the hospital, with no other friend or ally
If I knew that you would distress and leave me so alone
I would have given up my life for you, falling down from a valley
 
Those difficult times in life when you needed a lift
Don’t u think I was the one who always explained u the gist
Trying hard to make you smile on silly jokes
I practically tried to act like a clown with different strokes
 
Hey do u remember the walk on the street?
It was so silent with only the moon and “US”
I said “US” bcoz; I always assumed it was “US”
Never really understood when u said “YOU” and “ME” which is a disgust
 
I think of those times when I bunked my class for you
Now I feel dreadful, because I hadn’t any clue
The polite way with which u said “Let’s Break up”
Feels like someone slapped me really hard and rough
 
I have no regrets to have done all these things
But where do I go now with no specific direction
I m trying to recollect these old good times
It always gives me pain to live life in desolation
 
Can’t there be any machine which rubs off the bad times
People would feel relieved with only Good times
I get angry with my heart which overlooks all your faults
It has become like an empty space & a deep burial vault
 
I can just thank you for the time u were with me
How could I have learned whats love, loneliness without “WE”?
Take care of my sweet buddy, inside YOU
I would always be there to help you; still loving u TRUE!!

Something for you

There is something special, I wanna give you
Walking down the aisle I wanna say “I Do”
Give all my soul, gift myself to you
I just wanna get so much lost in YOU…

Will you catch my hand, so that I am calm
Look in my eyes, to feel my love so warm
I don’t know what made you look more handsome
Was it the smile that you wore or the love in your tone?

I was lost in my thoughts, reliving the moments with you
I was stunned to feel so much close to you
I was also afraid to move ahead in life
And come and vow that we would be man and wife

But looking at you gave me courage
And I just started walking ahead to the stage
I was so excited about the days to come
Walking hand in hand with you to our own HOME

I was savouring each instance really very slowly
I wanted to live this NOW, doubting if this is happening all really
I made my promise to be with you, my life whole
In both happiness & sorrow and till the end of my soul

I wanted to kiss you dear, and make you only mine
At the same time, I know I can’t force u to stay all the while
I wanna give you freedom, and want to give you peace
I would be away, if that would make your stress cease

I know it sounds stupid, to say all these things,
But I m sure you would read between the lines to find something
If you make up ur your mind to keep this vow for lifetime
Do come back to me, this bride will wait for you till the end of her times!!

Everytime I fight

Everytime I fight with you
it pinches me all day and night long
whenever I shout at you
I fall from cliffs very strong
 
I sob for days further
trying to gain consciousness
In order to regain my energy
and peace and awareness
 
I start to condemn myself
For all the injustice I did
Praying to heal the wounds
Which were deep created
 
Sensations act as stimulant
When combined with passion
But are depressing and misleading
When you lose caution
 
Please help me achieve calmness
to spread energy and fragrance
Not for the moment of now
but in real essence
 
Please consider me a student
for life and to go beyond
If there exists a world apart
In the midst of unseen songs.

One Evening

One dry windy evening,
I was all dark and alone
Frustrated and a bit depressed
And a total nervous
Didn’t know the reason, which put me in the prison
 
Possibly I was waiting for you
Or for your thought
Or for your spring smile
Atleast a word awhile
But as time really went
I got much more dense
 
Evening turned into night
And grey turned into black
Moon turned more shiny
The whispering of insects was chimy
Friends stated to have a shout
But I could not move about.
 
Suddenly I felt something light
Entering through my gloomy heart
It was a thought of yours
Which calmed me before I could start
I lost all my pains in a moment
I tried all means, but was silent
 
It brought a smile on my face
I started cheering up
Without a reason, without a presence
I started laughing up
I started feeling energetic
As to fight with the world
My heart started dancing, as to beat the birds
 
I could realize now
Your thought is so precious
More than your presence
As makes me always cautious
Your thoughts are my inspiration
Your words are my intellect
Your smile is my biggest Asset
You, the only Soulmate

Love

Hey, do you really understand?
what is Love?
it it a responsibility,
or an aimless goal?

Neither it is a burden
nor a target either
it is a pleasant feeling
of the divine nature

It tears every bond
it ignores every tradition
love, always gives a start
to a new custom

It can’t be derived
it cannot be invented either
only if you are rare enough
then you are bestowed dear

It gives you energy
it makes you smile
teaches you the truth
of your own soul

It helps you forget
all the hostility and problems
love teaches you to,
start caring for every relation

It itself is colorless
but see the miracle
anything filled with love
expresses its true color

Its depth is unmeasurable
its power is unbeatable
its feel is intense
its touch is unforgetable

If you are in love
you the luckier one
as the luckiest being
whom you really love!

“I” has become “You”

Where ever I go
I find You
cannot really live now
my life without You

You, the only one
with me every where
doesn’t really matter whether
You are actually where?

What makes me think of You
I could not understand
You are the only support
besides which I stand

I visualize the world
with your sight
which has made my life
clear, shiny and bright

I listen to sound around
through your ears
which helped me overcome
all my fears

I breathe in You
I feel through You
I has lost its identity
“I” has become “You”