Words from my heart

• Music is love. It is the sound of love. Sound is the only way to express, to pour your heart, your love, out. I mean, it is the root, the very source of universe.
• Quality is the key. It makes you happy. It moves you an inch further to that divine energy. Hence it sells better. It has to.
• Emotion is life. Emotion is expression. It is our true nature. Be yourself, express yourself.
• I am still in control. I need more of it. I want to lose myself. This is life. This is it, the only moment, and I guess this is the only way out.
• I represent myself. I am my only salesman. I am the one who sells me best.
• Should I do it? Do I give myself to you as I would, when I feel what’s around me?
• Every moment is the bliss. Live here, die here. Take a shower and go back to work. This is it. This is the world, the only home.
• This is better than the last time. This is real good coz I am learning. This is Evolution. Yes, I am talking about Darwin’s natural selection.
• Pain is true. Pain is love. They are the same.
• Can’t I be this good all the time? Bless thyself. Let me be it. I am loving it. These are the moments, I will say.
• Music is energy. The very nature of music is therapy. It’s like going back home. It purpose is to make you feel better, that’s it. You got it.
• I cannot define sense. Is it being Sensuous or for that matter, Sensitive. Alive.
• I am living these moments. Let me have them. They add up in the end, to make my life. That’s also my age. Literally too, age means summation of the years, you were alive, yes, living.
• May be I am nearing to the best of me; my senses, my treasures, my gifts.
• Gratitude is yet to come, I think. I have stopped worrying these days. I am less scared now, relatively though, yes, that’s what I have achieved so far.
• Let me do it. Do not stop me from being me. Lets go back home. I am here to take you home. Lets go home, its time.
• She was there; I was so sure, so much that I was confident, not scared of her being there. But I guess, it’s a fair deal.
• I believe I will survive. I am a better person now, more in control, or that’s what it seems at least, and rather that is what it is supposed to be.
• They are waiting there like idiots and wanting something better to come. What an illusion! What more could come? This is the best shot. The day’s best panoramic capture by a photographer. Live now.
• If you feel alive in its presence, then it is something worth talking about. That might actually be it. Everything else is business.
• Her color is fair as clouds. Her walk is like ice, the breeze itself. Her arms are gray, slender and her clothes are gold. She moves me. There she is. She is the one.
• The best friend. She is the chilling wind of fall. I am at sea. Yeah, at sea.
• Judge anything by love. That’s it. It should move you. Love moves. It is its nature.
• Could you take me with you?

Sports

Sport and game are not synonymous. They mean entirely different things. Sporting is much more deeper process compared to games. Games are activities done for fun purposes.

Sports are a boon. If you are a sportsman, you would know it. It takes a lot of hardwork and passion to learn sports, but sports have a much bigger picture to show you. It does not take anything to love sports, it comes from within. You can learn the skills but cannot buy the love for them. Love comes from your blood and your very basic nature and existence. Love is existence.

To be a perfect sportsmen, it demands a lot of time. Not everybody can do that. Sport transform you to higher levels of mind and soul. You do not belong here while playing. Journey towards the stage of perfection starts from the road of hardwork and passion but requires much more. You have to have that blood and those nerves. Hardwork and passion are blended with your genes and then a meditation stage is reached. You are meditating and all of your energies are concentrated. Just as concentration of sunrays brings fire, concentration of energies brings purification. At this stage, you get purified. This is the purification of the body, mind and the soul. You feel fresh and rejuvenated. After this cleansning process, there comes perfection.

At this time, your body is not controlled by you, neither do you require to concentrate forcibly. It just happens. You happen to play the best of your strokes and it just happens. They are called masterstrokes and masterstrokes create history. They continue to amuse the worlds for infinite durations. It is a divine creation.

It takes a lot to create masterstrokes, it is a long process and most of all, it requires those genes and that blood.

Inquiry

Dear Living Beings,

This message is for all of us. All who breathe, all who feel, all who need food, sleep, shelter and security. All of us who survive on this planet called Earth, which is a small part of this galaxy, which is again part of the Universe where millions of other galaxies and many trillions of similar planets exist, all of us who are born and are told that we would be dead sooner or later. There is enough evidence around to prove these basic facts, isn’t it?

First of all my question is do we know who we are. Do we know what are we here for? Do we know what the purpose of our life is? Do we know what are we supposed to do? One thing one want to make clear is that this is not again a philosophical business. This is truth and we all know it. Most of us agree that life is all about money, food, sex, shelter and security. Are we aware that there is more to life than craving for money, desires and competition?  Do we ever try to find out more from life? Yes there are many people living here who are doing more than the four basic requirements mentioned before. But is it enough? We have great musicians, fighters, artists, sportsmen, speakers and many more of such great gems who dazzle our world. Yes, they are the crown. But is it enough? Can’t we move further? Does life end here? 

We all know what business goes around in the world. We are confined with our desires, our mind. We do what we are taught and we do not ever dare to think more than that, because of fear; fear of losing our identity, or fear from powerful people governing this world. We all know that we are going to die, because we have seen it going that way with other people. That is something which creates agony within us. Then there is fear of emotions, we are humans. We have feelings and emotions. We cry, we laugh, we love, we hate, and we do all what is not mechanical. We agree that emotions are one important aspect where we could be distinguished from machines, robots and computers. I did not say trees, animals and birds because they too have emotions. They do feel anger, hatred, love and attachment too, although they are not human beings. They feel the love, they feel the agony. 

We are all living a mundane life no better than trees, animals and birds. It is actually worse. I can prove it is worse. Then we have mind, the desires and thoughts. Mind is something what rules most part of our lives, we human beings have multiple minds. Mind is nothing but ego, the self. It is what creates thoughts, it is what creates desires, it is energy behind all our sins and achievements. Yes, achievements too. Mind is a blind jockey which keeps whipping us all the time and creates desires and then provides energy to fulfil them. I said blind because it is biased. It cannot differentiate between truth and erroneous. It makes us keep running in this blind race where nobody wins. People seem to win or loose, but actually nothing is ever lost or won. 

It is here, survives eternally. Remember wise people have said, “Energy can neither be created nor be destroyed, but can only be converted from one form to another”. We seem to own a lot of things. We own our house, our cars, our machines, our clothes, don’t we? What is going to happen to all these possessions of yours when you die or when you don’t exist? Somebody else will take over them. It becomes the property of somebody else. He is ruling it now; temporary dictatorship. When he dies, somebody else will take care. The cycle goes on and on, endlessly. The things survive, eternally, in one form or the other. Physical attributes change. They say, it all existed as a gigantic mass of energy. They there was the biggest collision in the history of Earth – Big Bang. That created universe, galaxies, stars and planets. Energy always exists. It can never be destroyed. You can climb the biggest mountains, swim through the Atlantic, conquer the stars, or dig out the deepest mines, it’s all the same. Physical aspects are different, energy is always present. 

I am writing all this to trigger an inquiry within you, within me. Let us all inquire. Let us learn to inquire. Inquiring is not just probing or getting answers to your routine questions. Inquiring is deeper. Inquiring is more subtle. Inquire means to explore, to find out, to dig deeper; to find more meaning to all of this. 

Can we begin with the ground level? Can we again start with a zero? Why zero because all of your intellectual oceans, hills and valleys are made up of virtual sand, which blows away even with the smallest jerk of wind and which is an effort of the society at large, for their own benefits. Society has created your mind or rather nurtured it. They have taught you what was needed for you to serve them. They can’t teach you more. Don’t expect miracles from them. You will have to work on it yourselves. Your perverted and crippled mind is the gift or rather by product of the education provided to you by the society. A crowd can never be intelligent. Intellect, freedom and bliss are individual’s aspects. An individual can be happy, or sad, or intelligent or idiot, or free or enslaved; crowd can never be. Society is a crowd. 

Remember nobody will do a favour. They cannot, they have their own self. They have to feed their desires; they do need their bread and butter. As long as you are helpful to them in one or the other means, they will help you. Lets us reclaim this fake business. You only can find answers to your questions. Nobody else can. I am a human being. I am weak, I have fear of death and I have desires. I have feelings. I am not god. I am a simple man like you all or rather weak. I am not able to understand all this matter. 

Gods are the nothing but our desires aggregated in larger masses. We create gods when we want. We ask them to fulfil our desires. We visit churches, temples and mosques only when we have something to ask for, but that is human nature. We are born with a self, an ego, a mind which makes you run all the time. You are not able to take a halt. Stop for a second and think. What if you fulfil all your desires of power, money, luxury, lust? Won’t more of them arise when earlier ones have been accomplished? Does this business ever stop? It never stops. We continue to crave for desires. We go on and on. We never stop, because, if we stop for a second, we might start thinking what is all this nonsense. God has become a business. Temples and churches are biggest of shopping malls where gaining, loosing, negotiating and all that business goes on. We buy gods in rupees and dollars, if not, then in golds and silvers. We promise him to pay if he fulfils what we want. Is this the god we pray, is this the god we trust? 

Motion keeps us afresh with our desires and senses. That’s why we keep running all the time. You know that stagnant water becomes useless. Mind is the same. If you stop for minute, you tend to think, what the hell is going on? And mind stops to work. Mind moves every inch to make you run again, in this endless world of thoughts, desires and needs. 

I am not against the mind; I am neither against desires, nor materialistic demands. I am an inquirer. I want to inquire, I want to find out. I have all these possessions. I love, I cry, I feel for other people, I have fear of death. I am not against this world. I cannot be. This is the only place we have, this is the only time we have got and this is the only life you are gifted. Let us all inquire, inquire within you, inquire the nature, inquire the trees, and inquire the world around, what is missing. Despite of all what we have there is something important missing, something substantial. We miss happiness and we miss freedom. We miss ourselves. We do not want to be machines, do we? Then let us all explore all the seen and the unseen. Let us find more out of it and then this all will start making sense. Even if you die within your process of exploration and inquiry, trust me, you would not go to hell, if there exists one! 

~Student of life, an Inquirer

Effects of Alcohol

Alcohol is a magical drink. It really does magic. For some, words come out of the heart; for some, words go back in the heart. Some feel introvert and feel like sitting silent for hours and talk to self whereas some become extrovert and continue talking with the world for hours together as if they are a politician. It is a magic, isn’t it? 

What happens actually when you drink? Or what happens when you drink, smoke or inject drugs? They all have similar effects on your body, although the intensities and shades are different. 

First thing these drugs do is they loosen your brain cells. They dilate your brain parts, which creates energy. Let’s understand by an example: 

Let’s say an electric motor throws water through a pipe. The amount of water thrown out every second is proportional to the area of the pipe, isn’t it? What if you replace the smaller pipe with a bigger one, the motor would start throwing more amount of water. 

Something similar happens in your brain, when you are high. The valves dilate and the cells loosen up. This process creates energy and you feel different. Some people use this energy to become introvert and use their mind to think about a lot of difficult matters in a short time, since the brain starts functioning very fast, so fast that the body is not able to catch up with it. Let’s understand with the same example: 

Let’s consider the same electric motor symbolizes the human body and its water flow symbolizes the working of the brain. As you increase the area of the pipe, the water pressure increases proportionately. However there is a threshold till which you can increase the area of the pipe. The moment you cross that limit, the motor would stop working, why? – Because, the motor capacity is not able to catch up with the increased pipe capacity. Similarly, when your brain starts working too fast, the body is not able to catch up with it; after all body has its own limits. Hence when you are high, you might experience your brain flying like a flying saucer but the body looses control, you can hardly stand properly and normally fell down. Synchronization is lost. 

It is sad that only few people understand this process appropriately and use that energy to create wonders. They could well solve impossible problems, create eternal paintings; write immortal poems and things of that level. This happens due to the extra energy; although there are limits. 

When body is not able to catch up completely with the brain, you cannot achieve much because body is the medium to act; to perform actions using senses. Till the time your body is in tune with the mind, you find people doing much when they are high, don’t you? They are found singing, dancing, abusing others, talking too much, over reacting, behaving erratically, freaking out and so on. This is due to the extra energy. So get high, but do use the energy properly. It is beneficial and could create miracles, if you learn to control it properly. Energy is like power; if you can handle it well, you are a hero but if you cannot handle it well, there is always a chance of harming yourself. So learn to work on it. 

Few tips: 

1. Know your limits. Consume only within limits.
2. Five Ds for alcohol (Duration, Density, Diet, Dilution and Sun-Dawn).
3. Use the extra energy produced for creative purposes, you will be surprised to see to the results. Try it yourself.
4. Do not consume outside unless really important, if former is the case, consume within your limits. Home is heaven.
5. Do not let others utilise your extra energy for their selfish motives.

Everytime I fight

Everytime I fight with you
it pinches me all day and night long
whenever I shout at you
I fall from cliffs very strong
 
I sob for days further
trying to gain consciousness
In order to regain my energy
and peace and awareness
 
I start to condemn myself
For all the injustice I did
Praying to heal the wounds
Which were deep created
 
Sensations act as stimulant
When combined with passion
But are depressing and misleading
When you lose caution
 
Please help me achieve calmness
to spread energy and fragrance
Not for the moment of now
but in real essence
 
Please consider me a student
for life and to go beyond
If there exists a world apart
In the midst of unseen songs.

Love is one ecstasy; sex is another

Love is one of the feelings which can be ranked highest among all the other feelings, emotions. It is greatest among all the senses. It gives you peace, freedom, pain, desire, sensitivity, beauty, energy at the same time. It is the best feeling one can have; one great ecstasy for living beings. 

Sex is another ecstasy which gives you a feeling of divinity and a mixture of all the other nouns used above. It is a combination of physical and mental satisfaction, peace.  

Love and sex, they both make two extremes of human emotions. These are two best feelings organisms can have, two perfect and complete emotions, felt ever. Sex is the only energy behind every organism taking birth and the only energy to start the world. Love is the only energy which keeps the running. Everyone wants peace, which means love in deep meanings. Everybody wants to be happy, which means satisfaction and hence a thirst of love. Without these powers, you cannot even imagine the world. It will evaporate just like ice does when you try to catch it. Human make most of their living revolving around these two extremities. 

When these two come together, it makes the best innervations ever possible. The purer the feelings are, the intense and pleasurable the result is.  

Although achieving both at the same time might mean having sex with somebody whom you love, or to start loving your partner for sex, if these two don’t happen to go together!!

Mind over matter

Mind is wandering all the time, at every place; it never seems to take a halt. It is a never ending waterfall, the only difference against waterfall here is thoughts; thoughts flow from mind.

It is very difficult to control your mind, however not impossible. I guess that’s the only task in this world, which seems and is toughest. Mind has lots of tricks to trouble you, to show you new dungeons every nanosecond.

Mind does not like rules; it is always desperate to break all the rules; to cross all the barriers. Breaking barriers is good sometimes, you achieve lots of gargantuan goals, which are otherwise impossible to achieve. Every emotion, the language of mind, could be converted to an impossible outcome, since it supplies tremendous amount of hidden and sleeping potential from within which adds together to create souvnier paths.

The emotion is one of the language in which mind talks. When you feel emotional, you tend to behave erratic, suddenly vague from what you have been behaving for months or years, suddenly diverting from your routine life. The mind is the host of all the dramas.

Your subconscious part of the mind stores everything; it is like a huge database of all the pictures, moments, names, knowledge, skills, thoughts, affections, love, feelings, people, seen, heard, felt or sensed in anyway and in any time.

People when high always speak truth; since filters of the mind loosen up that time, they allow lots of actions and thoughts to go out, which are normally blocked. Your subconscious mind is working when you are asleep, the processing is going on. New thoughts, new actions, new planning are getting cooked all the time, mind doesn’t stop working. You are fascinated by things, humans whom you like, or have similar or common habits, those who like you, or those who care for you. It never ends; the quicker the mind takes to get attracted towards something, the quicker it gets bored and detached from the same things. You never know what you are going to like or dislike, things liked in past may not fascinate you tomorrow.

Mind is a big subject to be talked about, a never ending one. It does not have a size, a shape, a residing place or a definition. All the people who have tried to talk or write about mind have expressed their own thoughts, views on the subject. There is no check or evidence of the talks. It is a quite interesting area to talk about but at the same time, it is quite confusing too. I am going through the same feeling which lots of other people in the world have gone through i.e. to know mind, in and out. This seems a herculean task, although might not be impossible. Get deeper and deeper and you might find something. This subject is truly philosophy. Some portion is rational, rest all invisible, unseen, unexpected seems irrational, but it is true. Truth means which exists, it could be seen or unseen, realizable or unexplainable, rational or illogical, or anything else; matter or antimatter. Realize the truth; it is all in itself, nothing else is complete. The whole world, we call it materialistic world, since we can see matter, makes a small part of the whole truth. Antimatter is a grey area for humans for over thousands of years, would still keep them engrossed for n number of years.

–Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don’t mind, it doesn’t matter.”